If I thought about eternity more often, this whole post-grad thing would be stressing me out a lot less. After all, when you know Jesus, making plans for your life is a funny thing. For 22 years, I've gotten away with seriously underestimating my God's sovereignty, but He's been gracious in reminding me that I am always weaker and more loved than I could ever imagine. The cross has a way of speaking my smallness and God's goodness all at once
The last few months have been characterized by an unusual kind of struggle between my flesh and spirit. Between a relentless desire to control my life and a relentless savior who has better things for me. The months leading up to graduation (and the proposal) have been marked by a dark sense of fear and deep sense of joy, so I've felt petrified on my worst days and wobbly on my best. My plans to stay in Texas and pursue a comfortable career near my family and friends have gone out the window, but I have chosen adventure in the state of Kentucky with my best friend. Falling to fear is the easy, obvious choice to make, but I have the freedom to press into the gospel instead. Fear has no hold on my heart because it's been paid for in full by the blood of Christ.
Second only to the realization that I am deeply loved and chosen by a holy God, being deeply loved and chosen by another human being is the strangest and most terrifying thing that's ever happened to me. In this season of engagement, I've been awestruck at the endless threads that weave the unfathomable love between Christ and His bride within the covenant of marriage. It's intimidating to realize that Keller and I are running headfirst into this new ministry of marriage, but exhilarating to realize what responsibility we've been given in protecting something so precious. I'm convinced that there is truly nothing sweeter on earth than Christ-centered and gospel-driven love between two believers, but learning to trust this has been anything but easy. We're two sinners after all, and our sin drives us to the end of ourselves until we reach out for the help that only Jesus can give. We are learning to reach more quickly and to hold our plans more loosely.
So we wobble back and forth during engagement and remind ourselves and one another of the character of Christ, which is anything but wobbly. We lean into the cross and press ahead because our God goes before us. Into Kentucky, into job interviews, into a new season of marriage. He weaves us in, before and behind.
Love,
Katie
Second only to the realization that I am deeply loved and chosen by a holy God, being deeply loved and chosen by another human being is the strangest and most terrifying thing that's ever happened to me. In this season of engagement, I've been awestruck at the endless threads that weave the unfathomable love between Christ and His bride within the covenant of marriage. It's intimidating to realize that Keller and I are running headfirst into this new ministry of marriage, but exhilarating to realize what responsibility we've been given in protecting something so precious. I'm convinced that there is truly nothing sweeter on earth than Christ-centered and gospel-driven love between two believers, but learning to trust this has been anything but easy. We're two sinners after all, and our sin drives us to the end of ourselves until we reach out for the help that only Jesus can give. We are learning to reach more quickly and to hold our plans more loosely.
So we wobble back and forth during engagement and remind ourselves and one another of the character of Christ, which is anything but wobbly. We lean into the cross and press ahead because our God goes before us. Into Kentucky, into job interviews, into a new season of marriage. He weaves us in, before and behind.
Love,
Katie
