So I'm back to writing, mostly for my own sanity, within the pages of this blog. As I begin my senior year of college, I'm doing my best to soak up the uncertainty. I'm determined to ride the wave instead of letting it swallow me whole because this little season of life is both entirely terrifying and entirely full of possibility. So I'm choosing certainty in the things I know and trust in the things I don't.
Things I know:
1. I find all the security I need in the cross. This security stands independent of circumstances.
2. I can walk confidently the knowledge that God is molding me to look more like Christ.
3. My job is to listen. My job is to wait.
Things I don't:
1. Where I'll be in a year.
2. What I'll be doing.
3. How I'll feel about it.
When I look at this list, I'm overwhelmed by the magnitude of each item on the second list and also pleasantly surprised by the fact that I can fit all my uncertainty into three little lines. But my first list is so much bigger than that, and there's freedom in remembering that if those are the only things I know, they're enough. Jesus is better than knowing.
"Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false Gods. Many, O Lord, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us, no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare...
Then I said, "Here I am, I have come--it is written about me in the scroll. I desire to do your will, O my God. Your law is within my heart." -Ps. 40:5-8
